As a follow up to the post I made last year that talked about Pamela in the Hulu show as well as her photo book, I had to continue on the journey with Pamela. But this time – it’s luckily from her own words.

Netflix recently released a documentary called, “Pamela, A Love Story” that was fully signed-on by Pam herself, featuring her life through her own eyes. To couple this, she also released a book that details her life story, entitled Love, Pamela. The biggest thing to take away from both of these projects is that these are Pamela’s words. This is one of the few times in which everything was under her executive direction and completely under her own terms. Obviously her life has been complicated in this regard, as her sex tape was released and distributed without her permission, as was the Hulu series “Pam and Tommy”.

A couple big takeaways that I picked up from her book is that Pam has been both very lucky and unlucky in this lifetime. She has been given a lot of opportunity that has glitz and glam and fame, and it’s easy to think that’s all there is to her. But Pam has been through a lot of darkness and abuse, and I think it has often left her with a question of who to trust. However, somehow through it all, she remains really positive and content with her life. She has scaled back from fame in her day to day, but still finds ways to be playful with her public image.

One of the biggest takeaways that I got from her documentary was her continued love for Tommy Lee. It was actually really heartbreaking to see how much love she still has for him, but I also understand why they can’t be together. There was a lot of darkness that came as a result of what they went through, and Pam knows how to protect herself. Unfortunately that meant stepping away from Tommy at the time of their marriage ending, and I really respect her for making that tough decision. However, I can’t lie and say that I’m not hoping for a late-in-life rekindling of Pamela and Tommy. I think if they’ve both been able to do some healing and reflecting, it’s possible. But whether it happens or not, I will admit that I cried my eyes out when Pam admits in her documentary that she will always love her sons’ father.

I have to say, she is so captivating to watch at any age. I would literally just watch her make a salad or read a book and it would be the most interesting things I saw all year. She radiates something that clearly has been her ticket to stardom, but it makes her so endearing and lovable.

Pamela, I love you and adore you, and am so happy to see you creating content for the world, as we can all be illuminated by your warm light. Thank you for sharing yourself with the world.

(Also, if it’s still possible, I recommend signing up for her weekly email newsletter. She gives life updates, random thoughts, and shares some poetry. It’s beautiful to see a glimpse into her mind in this intimate way.)

Thanks for reading!